My Love Letter to You...

To the love of my life...

The pain I had so deep inside hidden from the outside world with a smile to mask it, so deep even I had forgotten it was there and how to feel - everything was numb. 

Only you could of found it, the rejection, guilt and shame. I can never forget the way you came into my life. You physically saved my life. Stopped me in the middle of everything when I, me, myself decided I was able to end it all. How could I how could I have been so selfish? 

Thinking back over the past years I am truly amazed at the time, effort and patience you have put into making me and making this relationship what it is today. 

I am not perfect and I continually hurt you, but all you wanted was a chance with my heart. 

This was, still is and always will be the best decision into starting this relationship with you, I have ever made in my life. 

I Love You with my whole being Jesus...

Lost and Found...

In Romans 15 Paul explained the need to look out for the ones who haven't heard the word of God or fully understand it. He risked his freedom and life to spread the word of God to every part of the world he could get to. He wrote in Romans 15:20 'My ambition has always been to preach the Good News where the name of Christ has never been heard, rather than where a church has already been started by someone else.'
My question to you is, what impact do you have on the unsaved people the surround you everyday, do your words and actions speak of and portray the God you serve? We may not have the advantage of being a preacher or the funds to travelling the world like Paul, but we still have opportunities to rock and change the lives of others around us. There is a saying the goes 'actions speak louder than words', what are your actions saying to those watching you about the God you claim to serve and know?

Love... Unconditional?

When i think of the type of love a mother has for her child, or a friend towards another friend or even the love between spouses, they all seem conditioned. I know all parents say that their love is unconditionally there for their children, but we as humans have only ever received limited and conditional love from each other. On the other hand God's love for us is completely different, he loves us even when we totally ignore him. The amount of chances we are given is amazing. The Israelites were so ungrateful but God full of compassion, grace and unending love, never gave up on them. The unconditional love of the Lord is hard for us to understand as we have limits and finishes to everything. Lets forgive and love more throughout our everyday lives. Just try and imagine how peaceful this earth would be if we only knew what the meaning of unconditional love really was. 1 Corinthians 13:7 NLT

Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Patience is a virtue

I understand that God loves me and wants the best for me, but i seem to be the one that doesn't know what the best for myself is. I sin when i don't want to and God is always ready and waiting for me to turn back to him. Just like the children of Israel, i complain about everything i don't have instead of been grateful for what i do have. I feel like God needs help in the process of growth in my life, but all i need to do is have patience and ride out the plan God has got for me. I will never be perfect but i can start trying to be by letting go of my selfish wants and letting God take care of my needs. Proverbs 16:32 NLT

Better to be patient than powerful; better to have self-control than to conquer a city.

Be The Change...

Sometimes i wonder where are all the true, honest and faithful people of God, the people that won't settle for second best, but strive toward perfection in God? It's like we have either forgotten or don't care about Jesus and all the pain and suffering he went through just for us... for me... for you! He never broke a single law or committed a sin, yet he is the one that died and this is how we say thank you, this is how we show him we love him, by letting his sacrifice, his pain and his death be in vain by being lukewarm?
I once heard a speaker describe being lukewarm. He said being lukewarm is like taking a drink from a cup of tea, coffee or hot chocolate that you have wanted all day and not expecting it to be room temperture. Your first reaction is to spit it back out in disguist and disappointment! In Revelations 3:16, thats exactly what God says about us being lukewarm 'So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.' (NIV)
Is that what we want, for our Saviour to be so unhappy and disappointed in us that he get rid of us? We say we are christians but our lifestyles haven't changed, we still cuss, we still carry on rude, still disrepect each other. What exactly has changed about us, what evidence do we have to show that we are who we say we are, that we're not just all talk?  'Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.' (1Corinthians 13: 4 -5 NIV)
I have heard people being called 'holier than thou' and 'rightous' and been a bit confused, since when was trying to live a holy and rightous life wrong? Isn't that exactly what God wants, people that are sold out for him at all costs?

Mary and Martha... Who Are You?

In Luke 10:38-42, there small passage about two sisters called Mary and Martha. Jesus and the disciples was invited into their home. Now while he was there, Martha was rushing around, trying to tidy up, cook, clean and prepare, while Mary was just sat so calmly at the feet of Jesus listening to everything he was saying. Martha felt so annoyed and fustrated at the fact that her sister wasn't helping her do anything, but instead, just sat chilling out and listening to Jesus. Martha got so fustrated she went up to Jesus and asked him to tell her sister to help her. Jesus' reply was 'Martha Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed - or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her' (NIV).

Sometimes we get like Martha, we rush around trying to please God, doing the things that we think God wants us to do, saying the things we think God wants to hear, but sometimes all he wants is our time. Our time to sit, relax and listen to him just like Mary.

So my encouragement for you, is to spend more time listening, reading and praying to God. Start creating a special time in your day for God, whether it be in the morning as you wake up or evening before you go to bed. You will definetly notice the difference in your spiritual life.....

Standards: Do I have any?...

Commitment is a strong word, well by God's standards of commitment it is. When I think of commitment I think of a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship, but is that a real commitment in God's eyes? Being commited to someone includes giving your all for and to them. Isn't it unfair to give my all to a person who may not end up being my life long partner? What will I have to offer my other half if all I am is and has been dedicated to the 'trail' partner?... Isn't that unfair?
But my body is saying, why not, go ahead, it's ok God will forgive me. God created commitment which includes sex, for marriage. So if I want to live by God's standards and want to be commited to a person, I have to be ready for marriage otherwise the commitment is worthless. So if i'm not ready for marriage, then why should i get into a relationship, for relationship sake?.......